I see you over there.
Holding it together on the outside, trying to keep pace on the continuous treadmill of achievement.
Chasing that finish line. Head down, life flying by.
Pushing. Achieving. Acquiring.
Believing if you just try hard enough, you will *finally* find peace and serenity on the inside.
In the quiet moments, you wonder: Is this really it? You worry: If they only knew.
On the inside, you hide.
The real you.
Afraid to be seen, wondering how everyone else has it all figured out.
Wondering if there is such a thing as balance.
Overdrive is your autopilot.
It’s all you know.
It’s brought you success in many different forms.
But here's the thing...you're ready for more.
You're ready to quiet the noise and release the toxic talk inside your mind.
Ready to slow down, but terrified that if you do, your world will crumble.
Terrified of the judgement. Of falling short. Of failing.
You're ready to be seen and set free.
And being seen. All of you?
I know. I've been there.
I know what it feels like, and am here to tell you that there is a world that exists in between the all-in and not-in.
A place where you can stand in your truth and be unapologetically you.
A place where you feel fully alive as you walk toward your dreams.
A place free from shoulds and have-tos.
I know this because I'm living in it.
I’ve always been a girl with BIG DREAMS and the courage to go after them.
At 8, I started chasing a goal to be the best in the world.
Ten years later, I stood atop the Olympic podium with a gold medal around my neck.
I was so focused on achieving my dreams – so focused on the next step, the next goal that I missed the opportunity to fully appreciate what was happening right in front of me.
Standing atop the podium, I felt deep joy.
That medal changed my world.
And it may not be how you think.
Who am I in this world?
Who am I underneath all of this?
Who should I be?
After nearly losing our baby girl, my world was cracked wide open.
Every ounce of my being was rocked to the core –
realizing at the deepest level that this is it.
No matter how hard I tried to control the outside, it didn't protect me from the intense pain I felt inside...It didn't keep me safe.
There was nowhere I could push harder. Or do more.
I surrendered. And. Vowed to keep my head up.
This is our one life. We have a choice.
To show up and be seen ~ fully ~ to experience all of life.
To lift our head, soak in all the moments and live a life in full color.
Or we can choose to stay protected, hidden beneath our representatives, bullied by the toxic talk, buried by how we think we should be.
What is it really protecting us from?
Stepping off the treadmill allowed me to plant my feet firmly on the ground in a world where big dreams coexist alongside self-love, acceptance, compassion and grace.
Through the pain – my roots grew deeper.
I experienced a depth of freedom, balance and lasting joy that I didn't know were possible.